This would have been bittersweet for me no matter what, since the Wolf doesn't come home for a few more months, but now I have no happy reunion with him to look forward to, and also the fact that Sebastian just left a few weeks ago, and might be gone for as long as 15 months ...
I mentioned this (kind of) to Sebastian last time we MSN'd. He asked how I was doing, and I mentioned that a lot of my friends were expecting their men home soon, and it was bittersweet for me, and then I told him I really missed him. His reponse was "I am right here, and I am not going away". The boy knows how to get right to the point, and say the things that I need to hear.
He is having a rough go right now. There have been some serious injuries in his section, not boys directly under his command, but his boys have been on scene for the incidents, and there are a couple he is quite worried about. I am sure they are in good hands. He has a strong background in sociology and excellent people skills, and I am sure if they get to the point they need help he will make sure they get it. But still, me being me, I wish there was something I could do to ease his mind, and theirs.
And as weird as it seems, the fact he is continuing to share his life with me, stay in contact, and let me know the little details, is so very, very reassuring to me. I would have thought I would have been happier not knowing, but there is comfort in the connection, and I am not nearly as stressed out as I expected to be.
Trust is an amazing thing.
I think it's great that we have the ablity to communicat real-time on-line. I didn't have that, just letters and a few long distnace calls when in the states.
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