Where "Crow" comes from

OK, so I promised you the story behind the "Crow".

When I was a teenager, my mom went through a phase of being interested in all things new age, and there was a group of women she got together with to meditate, learn about chakras and energy healing, etc., etc. They occasionally invited me along to one of their meetings.

I had a hard time meditating; I kept feeling like I was starting to fly, and I would freak out, and start to cry. This could be because I am a control freak, and the whole feeling of not being in control really, really bothered me. Or it could have been that fact that I wasn't completely comfortable with the energy of some of the other women in the room, and I couldn't relax enough with them around.

My mom eventually made me a guided meditation cassette, using music I had picked out myself. Doing this meditation in the comfort of my own room, where I felt safe, I could do this meditation and relax. That is when I discovered that the crow was who I was "becoming" when I fully relaxed. Now, I was still a teenager, and I really wanted to be something cool, like a raven, but I am good enough at bird ID that nope, I was a crow.

I have since looked into the crow in celtic, native american, and other mythology, and have become more comfortable with the crow.

I havent felt myself fly in a while, and I kinda miss it.