Today I feel empty.
Today I feel resentful towards all the positive affirmations I have around, like they are taunting me, instead of encouraging me.
Today I feel worthless/insecure and jealous; I know one feeds directly from the other, but I can't stop it.
Today I feel angry.
Today I feel without hope, like giving up.
I have an idea why I am so unbalanced right now*, and I know it will pass. I know these feelings will go away, but today, this is how I feel. There are a number of little things that my brain is turning into big things. And today, they seem huge, unsurmountable, unconquerable.
But I will not give up, I will not give in. This too shall pass.
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* I had an allergic reaction to something on Wednesday, and they prescribed steroids to deal with it; the side effects from the steroids were much worse than the initial allergic reaction, and I think I have a steroid hangover.
I use to feel the same way on payday.
ReplyDeleteSounds like a good day to have a long bath and go to bed early, with the hope of feeling better in the morning. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteSorry that you are feeling so lousy. Steroids sometimes seem not quite worth the trouble they cause. I'm glad you can trace it and know to muscle through.
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