The little things ...

I just "talked" to the Wolf for a whole 15 minutes on MSN (that's what they are limited to on the shared internet before it boots them off).

The conversation wasn't a whole lot different information wise than most of his e-mails, but it was interaction.  He seemed in a decent mood - they were off work a bit early.  He was actually cracking some jokes, which is nice to see again.  I hesitate to use the word "normal", but it did almost seem like a normal conversation.  I guess this is the "new normal", for the foreseeable future.

He said again that basically all they have time for is work, eating, and sleeping.  I asked if that meant I should stop sending books over, and he said ya, he basically has a whole library built up and waiting for him at this point.  Oops.  I guess that means the box of DVD's that is on the way to him might also get a bit dusty before he gets to them ...

I had been very sad all weekend, but am in a more comfortable mood now.  I am not going to say happy, but I am closer to contentment than I have been in a few days.  It does concern me a bit how much my emotions lately depend on whether I have heard from him, and the tone of his e-mails; I wonder sometimes if I am going to make it through the next 9 months with my sanity intact.  I think I am learning from every interaction, and moving forward and growing as a person.  I am going to keep telling myself that, anyway!

I just wish experiences that expand my personal development and my perspective could be a little more enjoyable, a little more gentle!