My friend Sebastian and I have been talking a lot lately. Sebastian was my rock after things went south with the Wolf. Sebastian is a PTSD survivor, an amateur student of psychology and human behaviour, and has his head on straight.
In the last few weeks, we have been spending 2-3 hours a night, more nights than not, on web-cam conversations. Texting each other during the day. Talking about EVERYTHING. We really connect on a lot of things.
Lately we have been flirting a bit, and also talking more seriously about what we want/need in a partner, a relationship, etc. We seem to share a lot of ideas, morals, beliefs, attitudes ...
I don't know if I am ready to even think about another relationship yet. Ready to give myself completely. I honestly think I did most of my mourning of the relationship with the Wolf before I finally "gave in and gave up".. But I don't want to rush into anything else, and screw up something that might have potential. Or hurt him either, since he is someone who is very important to me as a friend. I am afraid to act, and afraid to not act.
Oh, and not only is Sebastian a soldier, he deploys in a couple of months, for approx 10 months, and on a mission that even has him scared.
What the hell am I thinking?????
Sunday, March 21, 2010
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From someone who left a very messed up relationship and moved right into another with someone who was my best-friend of 5 years I don't have much advice. Some may say you are moving too fast. Some may say that you jumped into something that seemed good because of the past experience. What I say is follow your heart. It is your life to live as you please. My suggestion.. since he leaves in a few months for a deployment how about keeping as friends for now. Be there for him through the deployment and see where the relationship lies when he gets back home. But it is all up to you and him. No one else can or should try to make that decision for you guys.
ReplyDeleteYep, follow your heart. It might take you places you didn't want to go, but you'll never get lost. Life doesn't need to be a rush, so see where things take you.
ReplyDeleteYou have spent months and months trying to make a relationship work that someone else chose to end, no one can accuse you of moving on to fast! If you decide to move forward with this person I say go for it, the world is full of stories where couples met when it's not the 'ideal' time and they flourish! Give yourself a little romance :).
ReplyDeleteI'm with Nolie...
ReplyDelete(((hugs))) You deserve the best. Just be careful. :)