Army Run Weekend, and a quick look back

I am on my way to Ottawa to meet up with a bunch of my MilSpouse peeps, and to participate again in Canada's Army Run, Raising money for Soldier On and the Military Families Fund.  Unfortunately, on doctor's orders I am walking the 5K this year, not running, but I will be with good people, and its the cause that counts, not the time on the clock.  I will post when I am back and let you know how the weekend went!

I am glad to be spending this weekend with friends who understand, as the events of 3 years ago seem to be weighing heavy right now. It doesn't help that the Wolf is in the same province as I am, actually on a training course at the base where I have to pick up one of the girls I am car pooling with. Glad I will be distracted by good friends and good times.  My feelings are all over the place regarding him, and myself.

"My Immortal"

I'm so tired of being here

Suppressed by all my childish fears

And if you have to leave

I wish that you would just leave

'Cause your presence still lingers here

And it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus:]

When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears

When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears

And I held your hand through all of these years

But you still have

All of me

You used to captivate me

By your resonating light

Now I'm bound by the life you left behind

Your face it haunts

My once pleasant dreams

Your voice it chased away

All the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal

This pain is just too real

There's just too much that time cannot erase

[Chorus]

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone

But though you're still with me

I've been alone all along

[Chorus]