Irony ...

I love Ed Hardy designs.


I bought a new vehicle recently.  My old truck had a steering wheel cover with the Ed Hardy "Goldfish" on it; I thought I would change it up this time.  This morning I went and looked at what was available, and I bought myself a new cover with the "Love Kills Slowly" graphic on it this time.


As I was in the line up to check out, I got a message from Red that The Wolf is in town for the holidays.


~~~ sigh ~~~


Since the last incident, the one that involved the police, the MP's, his CO, and the no contact order, I have maintained that if we made it through Christmas leave with no incident, then I would let myself start believing it was really over, that he had gotten the message.


I guess it is really going to the test.  Sebastian is convinced that the Wolf is not stupid enough to jeopardize his career over this, and I really hope he is right.  I am not convinced, however, of the rational influence of that threat on a person with PTSD and anger management issues who self medicates with whiskey.  But I've been wrong before.


The Wolf is trying to get Red to meet up with him for a drink.  Red, as it so happens, is the one he contacted back in May trying to get my address and other info; the one that alerted me that he was trying to find me, resulting in his CO being contacted the first time.  She is thinking she is going to be awfully busy for the next little while, too busy for a drink.


So in addition to all the holiday stress of being at my parents' place, seeing my dad's failing health, and my mom treating me like a consolation prize because my brother is not also home, I will be hyper vigilant on my 5's and 20's.


Thankfully, right now the plan is to head to Sebastian's place on boxing day; somewhere I can relax and feel safe and protected and forget about the bullshit and headgames for a while.  Other than the high population of tall men with high 'n' tights, which sometimes gets to me when I am "on alert".  I expect it to be a good visit.  Although the afore ranted about "crap" is still not resolved, he seems to be relaxing about it, and the last little while things have been really, really good.


Peace of the season to you all; and don't worry, I'll watch my 6 (or have a highly qualified person watch it for me).